Untitled

Drip
The tub is such a lonely object.
A hunk of metal, cold to the touch.
I guess I wanted to feel the cold of the metal against my skin.
I can relate to the tub.
I’m also lonely.
Cold to the touch.
Drip.
The tap is dripping.
It makes a sharp sound as it hits the metal.
It echoes in my mind as I contemplate my life.




Untitled, Oil on canvas, 61 x 76cm, 2024

This portrait is a depiction of myself, sitting in the bathtub with my face submerged in water. A sheer fabric draped over my face suffocates me, I cannot seem to catch a breath. The sound of water dripping from the tap makes a sharp sound. It echoes as it hits the water. I gasp for air but the cloth on my face is suffocating me. I sat in the tub many times contemplating my life and what was happening in it. They were cold nights, and I felt like I was drowning. It was just the suffocating feeling coming from inside me. I was being suffocated by my thoughts. I started painting in October 2023 when I was at my lowest. Working on it on and off, I feel as though I gave part of myself to this piece, and I have grown attached to it. The image is a mirror to myself and is deeply personal; It is filled with negative energy and hatred. It was there throughout my healing process, and the image began taking shape once I started growing as a person and letting go of those negative feelings. I feel as though my emotions have been trapped within the canvas and it serves as a reminder of my struggles.



'Untitled' - Audio Track, 1m 55sec

Alongside the painting I created an audio track containing sounds which I experienced sitting in the bathtub. I wanted to essentially recreate the image through sound. This piece is intended to play from behind the painting in a loop, taking you through the journey of those cold nights. Take a deep breath, close your eyes and submerge yourself. The water in your eardrums muffles the sound of the water dripping from the tap. Take a deep breath and make it all go away. As you resurface, you hear clearly again, you’re accompanied by the sound of water droplets hitting against the water. Take a deep breath again, the feeling doesn’t go away. I’m stuck in a loop, does it ever end.